Sweet Surrender

As You whispered into my ear i could feel myself getting lost in Your words, the deeper i went the more i began to let go.  As soon as i moved Your hand to my neck i knew i was finally there and for the first time i flew.  The tears that came were from the relief in knowing i could give myself to You and as we came together i savored that surrender.

Thank you, Sir.  i love You.

Your little b

my gifts i give to You.

Dear Master-

You ask me what I can offer to you physically, emotionally and sexually.  After careful thought during my meditation time today i have focused on the following gifts i can give to you freely and lovingly.

Physically i can offer you my body to play with, to bind, to beat, to caress as you wish, when you wish to. i can kneel happily at your feet, i can massage your body when it needs care, i can do for you when you cannot and do so with joy.

Emotionally i can give you my whole heart always; i will be there to cheer you on, i will be here for you to turn to when you need someone to listen,  i will open my arms to you should you ever need to just be held. i will be strong for you when you need me to be.  No matter what; i am here for you.

Sexually i will worship your cock, i will work to satisfy your needs, your whims, your darkest fantasies.  i will do my best to let go of my inhibitions and push past those limits that scare me because i know you will keep me safe.  i will do myself to make you want me, i will make myself available to you as you want me, whenever you want me and i will make you proud to own me.

Most of all, i will work to put your needs as well as the needs of our family before my own.  i will do my best to make you proud of me, to feel honored to own me and to make sure you know that all that i do, i do to please you because you are my everything and i want to be deserving of your collar.

These are the gifts i give to you; i hope you cherish them.

Your little b

Loving reminders

These were a late Valentine’s Day present from Master; i love seeing mine hanging from my keys and carrying that reminder of who i am with me wherever i go and how proud i am to be His. It’s the little things that keep me going.

His little b

The submissive Mantra gets an Update

After a few years I felt that my little one’s manta needed to be updated to better reflect who we have become as a couple and her role as my submissive.

I replaced the name “slave”.  My wife is not truely my slave.  She is a submissive, she is strong, smart, and beautiful.  She has selected to be my submissive, to give up some personal freedoms within the context of our relationship.

She has not lost any rights that women have fought for, she is not hiding behind me, she is simply looking to have a role that she feels comfortable in.

With that being said, I present the new mantra:

i belong to my Master.  my body, heart, and soul are His to protect and use as he sees fit.  i am his toy and will be used as he wants. 

i am a gift to my Master, His pleasure is my pleasure.  I take joy in his joy and want to please him.

i am His; he will protect and nurture me.  i freely give myself to him.

i worship His cock.  i will beg to suck it.  It is my idol.  I live to serve all of my Master.

i will be His slut in bed, his caretaker, friend, and partner in life.  my body is beauty, He loves my mind, and He takes what He wants from me.

i belong to my Master.  i will make Him proud to possess me.


A small interlude

Our oldest child has been sick with the flu and strep for the last few days and since she is needing a little extra TLC from us both; some aspects of what we do plus several of the tasks in my sixty day challenge have had to be put on the back burner. It dawned on me today that even though there are things we cannot do right now; we have definitely begun to switch more firmly into our roles because there are still many parts of our daily dynamic that are present….it thrills me to no end.

i have been instructed to make sure that i make time for my meditation today; in the appropriate position and attire regardless of the fact that i am not home alone.  Thank goodness we have plenty of movies to keep her occupied. Hopefully i can resume the actual tasks on my list by Thursday.

His little b

Sixty Days of Submission-Days 20 and 21…and 18 because i forgot it the other day.

The last few days have been very busy and stressful for me; yesterday i spent six hours testing for my first degree black belt in the martial art that we practice (this was the fourth of five tests) and it takes a lot of mental and emotional preparation on top of the physical training that goes into it.  Going into the test i mentally likened it to my journey; emotionally and physically i am pushed beyond my limits and at times i feel as though i can go no further but in the end i come out feeling invigorated, sore and proud.

So my tasks the last few days have been fairly easy and for that i am thankful.  i realized late Friday night that i hadn’t posted about Day 18 because i had been so wrapped up in the aftermath of the following day.  So to bring you up to speed here are the last few days of the challenge.

Day 18:Admire yourself in the mirror and make a list of items that you like.  Failure to do so will result in having to write “i am a bad girl and did not do as Master commanded” 100 times, numbered, on lined paper then post a photo to Twitter with Master tagged in it.

So of course i wasn’t particularly thrilled with this task; physically there aren’t a ton of things i admire about myself but i was able to come up with about ten items which was more than i thought i would so that was good.

Day 20:Pack a lunch for Master each morning; if Master does not have a lunch then i do not get to eat lunch that day.

No problem here; i have been wanting to do this for him for a while so i welcomed the task.

Day 21:Order a new toy and use on yourself in front of me when it arrives (it arrives tomorrow).  Failure to do so results in two hours on the stool in the playroom/workroom with the lights out (there are no windows in there so it would be pitch black).

I will post more on the results of this once it arrives and has been used.

Now to go soak my weary muscles in the tub…hopefully Master comes to join me. 😉

His little b

Dominant Words: From The Dominant Guide

Here is a good article about how what we say is important in the D/s world.  The act of saying “Suck my cock” can come out differently, for example:

“Please suck my cock”
“You know you want to suck my cock”
“On your knees!  You will suck my cock”
“Hey look at that butterfly, doesn’t that make you want to suck my cock?”

With so many ways to say something, it is important that we develop a style that works, combining our own personality with traits of speech that we know to work.

Check out the article on The Dominant Guide!